Vent…
What hurts the most is the fact that i know the truth and he just keeps lying to me to my face. I grow angry and more angry with myself for letting myself to get lied too, for not standing up to him and give him the big “FUCK YOURSELF” speech. Sometimes I grow so angry that i wan t revenge. Do him harm like he does to me. but right when i’m about to even lift a finger on this revenge i realize “i am not this person, i am better than him and this”. I love him so much not to do what he does to me, why cant he love me the same amount?
I hate that I love him so god damn much, I’ve loved him for so long that i forget why i even love him, then he reminds me with one simple gesture, and three simple words. Then there i’m lose myself.
